Nothingness

 

 

 

 

 

Do you ever feel like nothing? i do sometimes and it's a good feeling to me, to feel nothing for once, but that feeling doesn't come often. i'm utterly in love with someone who doesn't love me and it might just sound like i'm another love struck teenage girl but no i'm in that type of love that you wish wold go away because it hurts to much to even think about that person, you love them enough to want them to be happy but you wait for the day that another person wil come along and steal your heart away. or your like me and just want to feel nothing like you have so many times in the past, you wait for the moment that it doesnt hurt to see them walk by you and it doesnt hurt to talk to them or see them with someone else i long for that day i wish it was tomorrow and i could just be in a state of nothingness and be content with my lonliness and nothing else but i fear that day will never come so i still fill my days with sex trying to forget that one person but this just makes me come across as a slut but i dont care anymore because thats my identifier. you may not know me but im the girl that walks down the hallway seeming happy but hearibg all the whispered comment about me being a slut or a whore it tears me down and i know even my friends say those things to i learn to live with it because what im doing is the only thing that keeps me sane i dont feel nothing yet but one day i will and that day will be cherished my entire life